I just can’t believe it!!!!
When would all these “kalokohan” stop?! We don’t wanna be dragged in his misery and negativity; thus, we took a ‘break’ and just decided to focus on our lives, respective jobs, and the upcoming wedding (which as predicted is getting soooo unbelievable). But no, he continued to demand attention, hurl more invectives despite his alleged zen-ish ways, be further closed-minded, chooses to believe his own lies, conjures unbelievable conclusions from pure and simple answers, and recently, succomb to threats.
Now, we hear he is flying to the Philippines for confrontation…with insinuation still of making good his threats.
I told Kris and some people, I cannot promise to act civil. Moreover, I cannot promise not resorting to retaliation should Kris be physically harmed.
During the times I accompanied Kris to events in Ilocos, I often stay a step back from him. I lag behind ‘coz I want to guard his back. I would be his human shield should the need arise (my weird philosophy: I am ready for death at this point in my life for a loved one because I don’t have dependents yet for whom I should be alive for naman — hahaha, morbid? As I’ve said in the office when this idea came up, I blame our lousy uniforms for making us feel miserable in them and come up with these stupid thoughts).
Kris, being innately good and just a simple fellow, can easily diffuse negativity, always gives the benefit of doubt, and forgives immediately. Despite being told hurtful words, he would not reply with curses; despite being oppressed, he would beg for me to be more understanding and curtail my confrontative ways (yeah, I feel shortchanged with such pleas, especially since I don’t like being “plastic” to people).
In the humanitarian/religious point of view, good for him to be floating his boat that way.
But so far, all my constructions of event and /words/actions of other people have been right on the mark; my pre-judgments came out more than mere speculations, and I was able to identify issues even before they were verbalized.
With how I am reading the people around us now, especially this coming dude, I truly wish my presumptions are very very wrong.
Four days ’til October 11; yet, we have all these negativity weighing us down. As it is, preparing for a wedding is very stressful already; more so a political one and both being physiologically sick the past days at that. Add these? Plus making an issue the closeness with the kids and the irrelevant fact of illegitimacy — sobrang emotional battery na.
The dude says Kris should be wary of Karma. If so, then, I can rest easy. Karma to Kris…with unlucky me apparently ‘draining’ all my luck to/for him (hahaha, the most logical conclusion with how berby’s world has been with Kris in it); yes, I would definitely rest easy.
However, if evilness, jealousy, and the Dark Side overpowers us/destroys our credibility to others… then, I hope our prayers and the prayers of the people who really love us, would protect and sustain us.
We’ve been bending backwards pleasing other people most of our lives. I wish, somehow they would realize that we too deserve to be happy and at least just this once, please us too by just being happy for us. After all, we really followed basic proper protocol, apologized even if apologies weren’t exactly due, expressed gratitude accordingly, and never demanded for any grandeur whatsoever.
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