I sat through an episode of Grey’s Anatomy Kris was watching last month (I reiterate, I am not a fan).  The said episode was the one where George O’Malley’s father died (Six Days, Part II - Release Date: 2007-01-08).

I couldn’t help but cry when George’s family took the life support off the elder O’Malley.  The scene was so achingly familiar — hearing the continuous beeping; seeing the flat line; everyone gathered around the hospital bed, helpless and grieving…

I was with Papa when he fell into a coma, when the last of his life-support medicines dripped, when they covered him in white hospital linen, and when they wheeled him out of his room in the hospital the final time. 

Happened almost four years ago already, but it’s still pains me when I remember the whole episode.

CRISTINA: "There’s a club. The Dead Dads Club. And you can’t be in it until you’re in it. You can try to understand, you can sympathize. But until you feel that loss… My dad died when I was nine. George, I’m really sorry you had to join the club."

GEORGE: "I… I don’t know how to exist in a world where my dad doesn’t."

CRISTINA: "Yeah, that never really changes."

http://www.greysanatomyinsider.com/quotes/episodes/six-days-part-ii/page_2.html

What Cristina said is true.  In my barkada, Lains and I are doubly bonded with our respective losses of our fathers, being Papa’s girls at that. 

Like George, I also didn’t know how to exist in a world where my dad doesn’t.

Now, I know that world.  I still don’t like it, but there is nothing I can do but to exist in it.

Happy Fathers’ Day, Papa.