who would have thought i’d end up strapped to an ECG machine in the Emergency Room of Makati Medical Center today?!

to begin with, i had a wonderful day at the office.  but near the end of my quick dinner with Kris at Luk Yuen Magallanes (as it was on my way home and i had to get some stuff from him anyway), my chest suddenly felt constricted.  initially, i dismissed it as ordinary heartburn.  but the pain did not go away.  worse, i was having difficulty in breathing and i’m losing my balance.  my arms and face felt hot, then all my limbs felt numb.  a few minutes after, my whole body started shaking. 

I tried to calm myself, loosened my belt and bra (as i remembered from a first aid treatment guide). told kris and betty what i was feeling prior (to tell the doctors in the event i pass away) and asked them to pray.  i too, began to pray because what’s happening to me is weird and i’m getting real scared.  i’ve never had these symptoms before, so not familiar and can’t comprehend.  i was trying hard not to lose my focus because i’m afraid of what might happen — will i still wake up?  kawawa naman si kris to deal with me unconscious or not breathing.  and funny vain thought:  gosh, nakakahiya naman if i create a ’scene’ in the restaurant ‘coz i can never go back there again without embarrassment!

Kris told me we’d go na to the hospital.  for someone who hates hospitals, i badly wanted to rush to one right away.  when finally, i felt confident to stand (with great difficulty), we went to MMC.

My ECG came out normal.  Doctors’ prognosis — it’s just gastroesophageal reflux disorder or massive case of heartburn!  prolly due to diet and stress daw. 

hmmm…

promise, i am not anxious.  i know what ri-anxiety is and how i am now isn’t how it can be.  yes, the exams will begin next week, but, i’m already in the process of surrendering my fate to the one up there. 

betty said, compounded complications na raw kasi.  to begin with, i have weak stomach already due to hyperacidity since high school.  combine that with bad genes, unhealthy lifestyle, and the stress i always have.

the doctors told me to see a gastrologist as well. dang.  in the meantime, i should take the medications they prescribed.  shucks, i recognized the meds…i just threw a bunch of them because they’ve become expired.  they are like papa’s meds post-surgery and when his stomach was no longer functioning properly due to the spread of his cancer. 

hmmm…