kris has this idea of studying abroad.  had thought of that before but then again i’m still stuck with an unfinished business and i’m kinda pissed off studying at this point; so i doubt i want to do ‘further’ studies soon. 

anyway, going back to kris’ idea; selfish as it may sound, but i’m not keen with it ‘coz it means him leaving and gone for almost a year or so.  got me thinking, is it me who just propels people to leave or i just have this knack of always being left behind?

when i was younger, that was my greatest fear — to be left alone (especially to be left by my dad). 

i’m already living that fear…and actually even more ‘coz all the berbanos are gone from home.  then, housemate mel is already abroad.  sometime in the near future, with housemate betty’s career, i know she’d leave as well.  then, kris too?

lainie and mel are telling me to leave na nga rin and be with them abroad. hmmmm, that could mean me leaving than being left behind, for a change.