Masarap din pala ang pasta sa AMICI :)  I thought pizza lang. Go try! (parking at the back or at waltermart and just walk towards don bosco).

• Kris said, PAL and Cebu Pacific now share the Centennial Airport.
• my eyes, my eyes!  kinda hard to read without eyeglasses anymore.  shucks, eyeglasses forever na ‘to!
• OMG, super great friends in full force helping me out.  kinda embarassing actually; but very greatful nonetheless…
• nanang’s back!
• the winds have been mightily strong.  atleast a good reprieve from the scorching heat of the summer sun! from http://weather.yahoo.com/forecast/RPXX0017_c.html

Today Tomorrow Mon Tue Wed 6-10 Day Scattered Thunderstorms High: 31° Low: 27° Scattered Thunderstorms High: 30° Low: 27° Scattered Thunderstorms High: 32° Low: 27° Scattered Thunderstorms High: 32° Low: 27° Scattered Thunderstorms High: 33° Low: 27° Extended Forecast

• the masochist behind the lens for documentation of this momentous event of a very good friend and a boyfriend .

Typhoon CHANCHU is approaching the Visayas (central Philippines) from
the Southeast, and is expected to brush the Northeastern Coast of Samar
tomorrow morning, Friday May 12 around 8 AM (all times are local Manila
time). The eye of the typhoon is forecast to make landfall along Tabaco
City and Tiwi, Albay (in the Bicol region, southeastern Luzon) before
midnight and cross Camarines Sur.  By Saturday afternoon, the typhoon is
expected to traverse Southern Quezon and is forecast to reach Manila
Bay by Sunday Morning, around 8 AM.   Winds are forecast for 69 mph with
gusts up to 86 mph. 

·        Still sad, but done with tears (again).  Still abandoned orphans, but not for long. Still not yet done with my case, but at least made a baby-step towards my goal.

·        Unfortunately, someone in the office heard my pigil-sniffling yesterday.   She rationed that maybe God did not allow me to pass the bar so that my alleged perfect life would have some imperfection.  Perfect life?  Are we talking about mine? 

·        I’m feeling weird, confused, and kinda in turmoil.  So many friends want to ‘help,’ but it’s hard for me to let go of my hiya and it’s not my nature to be totally dependent on others kasi.  Also, deep down, I’m scared…what if I fail in my goal…then all their help and efforts would be for naught.  I am thankful, that I am sure; but I can’t help having these thoughts eh.  What should I do?  Yes, useless worries to others…pero ganito ako eh…

·        I witnessed Jove’s signing of the rolls this morning — to document this momentous event of his and see what I’m missing.  Practice na rin for Kris’ turn tomorrow and an exercise of confronting my fears/embarrassment/2005 bar demons/anger.  Super kainggit and nakakaiyak; but truly happy for them.

·        Dang, my legal bookshelf needs major updating! I just found out na ang daming bagong books — Father B’s Primer, Tax of Vitug/Acosta, Nachura’s Poli, Azucena’s Everyone’s Labor Code, Aquino’s Land Registration.  Dyoshkopo!  Ang mahal and ang daming kailangang kulayan ulit (highlight to you)!  But even without studying for the bar naman, OC legal friends should get a copy of these pa rin to be updated and keep abreast with the law. 

·        Aside from these texts, better read the new controversial cases: EO 464, National ID System, CPR, and Proc 1017.  Just got copies of these; dang ang kakapal!  Then, the new Juvenile Justice and Welfare Act of 2006 came out already (no IRR yet) — gosh, this will have big impact on criminal and remedial laws!

·        Happy birthday, Shey!

Started on a goal yesterday.  I just ended up crying due to disbelief, sadness, anger, sourgraping, and re-questioning my fate.  Why? Why me?  Why again? Why not? 

Believe me, being in this situation is so damn difficult that words of advice and comfort do not seem to have any meaning.  Sitting, going over stuff I’ve gone through so many times, and remaining a researcher with no bright future for the next twelve months…while the world goes by (friends celebrating their success, going on vacations, getting promotions, getting married, acquiring properties, having free time without any worry as to study schedules vis-à-vis finances)…is just the pits! 

I thought I can make my perseverance rule again; but the loneliness of being in this situation (no more close friends in lawschool or reviewing for the bar) and the hardships concomitant to the steps toward my goal (supporting myself, living the trauma, braving the cruel judgments) made it unexpectedly hard for me to do so. 

I thought I am getting by already; but I guess my apparent balance the past weeks is still very fragile, still worn out by this lifetime’s successive trials.  Led me to think how unreal (a.k.a. “plastic”) I’ve become — always putting the appearance of being normal so as not to appear the loser that I am, yet my mind still screams non-acceptance. 

Today, I just have this knot in my throat and tears in my eyes are always on the verge of falling…..‘coz tomorrow, another batch of friends will be taking their oaths as lawyers…..again, without me.

• Forsaken hungry orphans.
• Expensive xwind tune-up.
• Seriously considering nosticism! Watch Bible week in the National Geographic channel. So interesting (believable due to research and credible interviews). 
• recommended by mitch for the gums!

• SMS from JMdL: Trials are like fire.  They can destroy or strengthen you, depending on your character and outlook in life. Remember, the fire that melts butter is the same fire that hardens steel.
• SMS from ARR: You must act as if it is impossible to fail (Ashanti Proverb)

• This year’s ATENEO Grand Alumni Homecoming will be on December 9. Please mark this very important date on your calendars, and inform all your Ateneo friends! 

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·        Without a fail, going through Robinson’s Place Manila will force you to have a collection of leaflets (condominium units for sale, Fitness First promos, Burger King coupons, etc.), a handful of samples of perfume sprayed on pieces of paper, and a barrage of vendors greeting you “Ma’am/Ser!”  Since I pass the mall everyday, I’ve gotten so immune to these that I know which path to take to avoid said papers and I’ve gotten the habit of tuning out said greeting.  However, one vendor two weeks ago caught my attention by surprise.  Who wouldn’t with this sale’s pitch: “Ma’am/Ser, Bili na kayo!  Boneless na, bangus pa!”  Toink, ano raw?!

·        movies to miss: Sentinel (Michael Douglas), Last Holiday (Queen Latifa), and American Dreamz (Hugh Grant).  A-W-F-U-L!

I heard before, and I subsequently believed and tried my damnest to emulate, that one can derive strength in helping or being of service to others.  Pixie said that this is not entirely true as “mauubos ka lang.”  Hmmm, yes, I must now admit, my adopted philosophy doesn’t hold true most of the time.  I know I am at the bottom of the barrel of my strength and in stretching myself to do favors for friends, I feel my weakness tolling already.  But then again, it might be just the other factors concomitant to doing said favors.  Pag-munian nga muli…

• I’m so proud of myself for "braving" a manicure, a pedicure, a hair & make-up session, and wearing contact lens for my friend’s wedding (thanks for the tips and big, big help, bets/shey/julia)! They may be soooo usual and petty to most, but, dang, they were tough ordeals for me!  Gosh, me-ann, feel the love? Ha-ha J
• After the me-ann’s wedding, my college friends and I went for coffee.  A big chunk of our discussion involved convincing our guy friends to get married already so we can have another event to attend.  Hehe.  Then we started describing what we want for our respective weddings.  I illustrated my ‘perfect’ vision of a wedding; to which pixie replied: there is no such thing as a perfect wedding.  Ok, I concede.  I just wished then that my wedding would be unconventionally non-Ria, y’know, possibly and hopefully free of glitches? J
• The seminar for new employees I attended last week was somewhat informative.  Unfortunately, most of the speakers tended to indulge in segways and personal conversations with people at the audience they were friends/familiar with.  A speaker was even very obnoxious about U.P. and belittled us Ateneans that I had to bear his irritating comments aimed to embarrass me (as I was seated in front kasi).  More irritating is the fact that he did not explain much about his designated topic anyway. He was more like harping about his so-called accomplishments and was proclaiming sad realities about the institution I work for (but to him, they sounded as if he’s proud of them and the fact that we can get away with them pa).  There goes my idealism…further down the drain! 
• Additionally, I am now super pissed with the person I felt bad with last week.  Aside from the Pontius Pilate episode, I can’t believe said person’s insensitivity about my bar-failure and other subsequent inconsiderate actuations/words.  If not for the thing of a greater importance to me and if not for my much stretched understanding…@#$%^&*! I swear, I truly do not need these right now and I know I do not deserve these shit from said person (a friend for years at that).